Happy New Year, dear reader, we're already ten days in! Things are happening quickly, change seems increasingly impatient: it isn't content to just loom on the horizon but comes knocking on my door, lets itself in, and snuggles next to me in bed.
If you can believe it, these painted ladies were caterpillars no bigger than the crescent of my fingernail less than four weeks ago. Like I said...things are happening quickly.
I think about this often, how life keeps changing whether I feel ready for it or not. I'd like the wisdom to make greater peace with this dynamic, to know when my influence is needed and when it's time to embrace the flow. The trouble with that wisdom--it's much easier to see in hindsight than in the moment, making me deeply grateful for my husband, for more experienced friends, for the guidance I find through meditation and prayer. Still, it can be daunting.
I've had a few resolutions on my mind lately. One is to live with no regrets, a phrase I think is typically used to encourage whims and self-indulgence without caring about the consequence to others. My desire is to be more careful, to prevent rather than ignore regrets, to conduct myself in a way that minimizes the times I hurt someone's feelings or fail to step up when my help is needed.
More warmth, more kindness, less regrets.
Another resolution is to read the Book of Mormon. Let me know if you're interested in joining me--I renew my offer to send a free copy to anyone who'd like to read along.
I have other goals, other dreams. Caroline and I want to build a butterfly habitat. I hope to seek literary representation for my novel. Maybe a few other changes, too...time will tell.
I'm wishing us well, dear reader, wishing us greater wisdom and clarity, greater discernment in seeking inner peace. I'm wishing us resilience and healing for the problems that seem as if they'll never go away. I'm wishing us good health, wonderful moments that don't seem rushed, the joy of finding the best within ourselves, endless creativity and love.
It's a brand, new year, and it's on the move.
Warmest wishes for a very happy one to you.